Hi, married persons, i am unmarried age 40, i need ur hearty and open answer , hope will get help from u,,,,,,?

please understand i am not making any fun,,, i want to share openly about this.... i am unmarried till this 40 years...many personal and impersonal reasons for that... ok, now i come to the point,, truly i am very energetic, enthusiastic, interested to develop my life with many talents,, i spend lot of time in studies and got many degrees,, i dont know why i got into this level of interest in studies,, one secret is that i was the only one who failed in my higher secondery out of 40 students in cl,,, but after that again i studied and got first cl and completed many degrees, that is not the matter to discuss,, after that studies i joined as lecturer and spend the time again in studies for the sake of students,.. due to the lectuere profession i bounded and confined myself into books again,,, but frankly speeking i dont like studies, books, spending in a single room with papers.. i like moving around, chating with people, and travelling kind. its my bottom of mind,, but i dont know why i did and spend inversly.. ok,, now the thing is that i concentrated not only in subjects but spritual too,, i spend lot of time in spritual forms of concepts and tried to understand it ,,, this also took more time in studies,,,here one more thing to understand is that i am verymuch fond of ... from my child hood (i.e. from 9 years onwards i do musterbation, knowingly and unknowingly),,, my parents saw many girls for marry,, and i also meantime got somegirls to enjoy,, but i could not do it with full way,,, that means i dont commit full when femals comes near,, now at this age also i am spending my time in studies,, and night do musterbation atleast twise a week,, i know in my community more than this age its very difficult to get life partner,,, because in my community femals are very greedy, adment, not adjust, and some parents also so,,, hence my question is is it possible to life without marriage in happy state,,, how to live and lead life without marriage? how to abstain or enjoy emotions without marrieage,,, and one more is that i dont like people, or prostitutes,, will you give me answer ,, thank you